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8 RAVES New Livejournal - Friends Only. [Monday October 24th, 2005 4:32pm] [ mood | angry ] [ music | Ryan on the phone. ] My new livejournal is xxmadeline. I'll only add you if you comment... And if I feel like talking to you. -Amehhh.

1 RAVES Eat me Titanic. [Saturday October 22nd, 2005 1:20pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | The Mixed Tape - Jack's Mannequin ] Alright, so for starters...WHO DROPS A MILLION DOLLAR NECKLACE INTO THE OCEAN?! I'd definately pawn that for beer or something..Cmon Rose, your smarter then that. AND THEN, while I was making fun of Titanic 1, I find this: Who THE fuck...honeslty. That made me laugh for a pretty long time, lol. I'm printing it out and putting it in my locker. Oh god.. Anywho, I'm so geeked for today :] x 837438. I get to go to this show in Puce and it should be a really good night... Jack's Mannequin is the best thing that ever happend to me, lol. Their such a good band. Holiday From Real She thinks I'm much too thin She asks me if I'm sick What's a girl to do With friends like this She lets me drive her car So I can score an eighth From the lesbians Out west in Venice Oh, California in the Summer Ah, and my hair is growing long Fuck yeah, we can live like this But if you left it up to me Everyday would be A holiday from real We'd waste our weeks Beneath the sun We'd fry our brains And say it's so much fun out here But when it's all over I'll come back for another year I'll look for work today I'm spilling out the door Put my glasses on So no one sees me I never thought that I'd be living on your floor But the rents are high And LA's easy Oh, it's a picture of perfection Ah, and the postcards gonna read "Fuck yeah we can live like this... We can live like this" But if you left it up to me Everyday would be A holiday from real We'd waste our weeks Beneath the sun We'd fry our brains And write it's so much fun out here Hey Madeline (hey Madeline) You sure look fine (you sure look fine) You wore my favorite sweater Being poor was never better A safety buzz (A safety buzz) Some cheap red wine (Some cheap red wine) Oh, the trouble we can get in So let's screw this one up right But if you left it up to me Everyday would be A holiday from real We'd waste our weeks Beneath the sun We'd lie and tell our friends It's so much fun out here But when it's all over I'll come back for another year When it's all over I'll come back for another When it's all over I'll come back for another year

1 RAVES Dear Jordan. [Saturday October 22nd, 2005 11:12am] [ mood | bad. ] hey Jordan... I'm sorry about lastnight, how I just left. I was just upset because it didn't seem like you wanted me to stay. I didn't mean to make it a big deal and cry and stuff, I was just tired and didn't know what to do. I hope your okay. I called Seans cell when I ran into Celine and her friend Steph, and asked him if he was with you but he said no, then I asked him to call you and see if you were okay and then I thought it was too late so said nevermind... I really hope your alright, I'm so sorry. I wish I could go back and react differently :( I hope we're okay. Well...maybe you'll call me before I leave today, or something. I don't want to call you I'm too scared for acting like a jerk. I hope you call me. Before I started riding home I pretty much just walked my bike until I got to a little before Riverside, because I was hoping you were walking towards me or something, so I waited and walked slow. Then I sat at a corner of a street for a little while and then realized you weren't coming, so I rode home. Then the weirdest thing happend, I was riding and I looked behind me and I saw 2 kids on their bikes and I could've swarn it was you and Sean so then I looked back and I wasn't sure so I kept riding but then when I talked to Sean I asked him if he was with you and he said no, so it wasn't you guys. Jordan, I'm really sorry. I know sometimes I'm alot to deal with...And that I make you mad sometimes, and I don't mean to. That's just how I react to alot of things. Like if I feel uncomfortable, I cry. If I feel unwanted, I cry...I really hope you call me :( I love you alot. I really do...And I hope you still love me too. -amy.

2 RAVES This is morning. [Thursday October 20th, 2005 9:53pm] [ mood | tired ] Today was pretty sweet. Becki and Allie came to get me around 4ish and then we drove down to the MacDonalds near...Far away from here, lol. Then, we went to the mall, then to Becki's and then me and Allie came back here and I did some stuff to my hair and such. I haven't talked to Jordan since afterschool and it's making me kind of sad :[ My hands are freeeezing! Rawr. Well I just wanted to post some new pictures and be off. ( PictureParade )

1 RAVES [Thursday October 20th, 2005 10:56am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Combat Baby - Metric ] This is Thursday... I am yet again in Careers, augh. My stomache really hurts today, I was stressing like mad this morning. I couldn't find my pants and my mom was being forgetful, and ugh... Lastnight, I went to LaurLa's ♥. She was getting a new bed and it's like a futon and the frame is wood and she got a futon chair too :] I like it alot, I wish I had that in my room. So after we unpacked the beds and stuff, we just layed around and talked, had some emotional moments... *looks at picture of me and Jordan on Ben's birthday then cries* Laura - "Awwww, shut upp!" lolol. Then we went in her basement and Dustin was online and so I forced them to talk because she kept avoiding it, and then it turns out they talked for like a half hour and then she called me at 12:30 am lastnight (aughhh) and told me everything they said and she was really happy, and Laura's a pretty spiritual person and stuff, so she came to the conclusion that God sent me to her lastnight to accomplish this between her and Dustin. She's like "Your my angel" lol, it was cute. I'm really glad things are going better between the two of them, I haven't heard her that happy in awhile :]. I am so tired today I could die. Jordan asked me to hangout with him, Sean and Danielle today but I told him it's better if I don't because it turns out I'm a woman...and I have these 4 days where I'm a complete and total psycho, so I thought it would be best if I just saw him tomorrow because I don't want to like lash out on him accidentally today and ruin everything for tomorrow, because we've been planning it for like 2 weeks, so yeah. I hope he understands... I think I'm just gonna spend the day in Becki's backseat while her and Allie go apartment hunting. *sigh* Maybe I'll stop at Tim Hortons and get me some coffee :] heh. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow night, lol. Me and Jordan are going to Toni Roma's and it's supposively really fancy so I'm going to dress up and me and him have a tendency to be really adult about things, and I just know as soon as we get in there, it's going to be like we're adults...And it'll just be nice to sit and talk to him :]]]. "I feel like I'm 25 when I get in there!" ahaha. Rawr, detention afterschool *blows hole in face with shotgun* AN HOUR LONG!!!! ONE HOOOOOUR! Thank god I have Allie's walkman or it would be a definate suicide over here... So, supposively I say 'educate' weird. I guess I over exagerate on the U, lol...That and boob. God damnit I am retarded. Well lunch is in 8 minutes so I'm going to check some other stuff. Later, amehhh.

2 RAVES She's not breathing back. [Wednesday October 19th, 2005 11:02am] [ mood | busy ] I'm in second period right now (Careers), we just had to write a cover letter and I'm surprised I still have hair on my head, because I was pretty close to ripping it all out. For some reason, I had a huge writers block and couldn't format any of the stuff I wanted to write. I just didn't know how to put any of it, I hated it. Then I read through the textbook and I was good... It's so warm in the computer room, augh. Lunch is in about 10 minutes, thank god. I'm pretty hungry. This weeks going by pretty fast :] I'm excited for this weekend because I'm pretty sure me and Jordan are going to attempt our date again, lol. If my parents rip me off for money this week, heads are going to roll. I've worked my ass off all week, and I'm pretty sure I deserve 20$...Cheap bastards. Oh, and yesterday I found out they one 2100$ at the beginning of the week, but they didn't tell me, thanks guys... Lastnight, Allie came over, and we were in the living room and then there was this like 800 pound raccoon on my porch eating Orangy's cat food. So me, Allie and my mom sat on the porch and watched him as he climbed around the place, lol. He was so fat, dear god. Then me and Allie went to Giant Tiger and stocked up on chocolate bars and Gatorade and then we went to the park and we decided we would throw up on the slides. She took the swirley slide and I took the wide, flat one. Then we pissed on them, and it was a good time, let me tell you. Thennn, we went back to my house and coloured and she ended up going home and I went for a walk with Laura :] Yesterday was good. Wednesdays are the worst! Jordan seems pretty stressed out today :[ I hope his day goes good. I get to see Britt again, woo! I love when I go see her at work because we have these meaningful life discussions, lol, we just end up talking about everrrrrything and anything, and she just makes me laugh, with her halloween masks and her yo yo, oh my..I hope they hire me *crosses fingers* Britt sounded pretty confident that I will get the job though, so that gives me hope. Wish me luck! I'm going to go, amehhhh. P.S -- I feel like I'm going to hurl.

3 RAVES oh MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN! [Tuesday October 18th, 2005 4:08pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | coldplay. ] "Eat that ______ I know you want to" *dies on floor* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAAHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.......................AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA. *face turns dark red as gasps for air* Oh snap dawg.

3 RAVES I'm bound to react now. [Tuesday October 18th, 2005 3:58pm] [ mood | augh. ] [ music | my moms crappy music. ] So, today fucking BLEW. I have the wooooorst cramps ever alive...And I'm contemplating suicide because of them. Luckily, there's a such thing as chocolate. Jordan waited for me this morning ♥ It was the cutest thing ever. Allie's sprawled across one of my couches right now, lmao. She smells... "What's that smell?" "Oh, it's perfume, Regina gave it to me" "You smell like a baby prostitute" *sprays air freshener* ahaha... So yeah, I'm like 900 pounds and I hate it :[ *throws up* I'm gonna go upstairs and get all dolled up, because that's what I do... Later, amehh.

2 RAVES Augh. [Sunday October 16th, 2005 12:58pm] [ mood | depressed ] What is wrong with me today? I'm just sitting here crying my eyes out about absolutely nothing. I feel so down today, and I hate it. I just want to get out of the house so bad, hangout with someone, talk to someone... Not sit in my house all day listening to music and crying. Ugh, I hate this.

2 RAVES Bend To Squares 5 or 6 times. [Sunday October 16th, 2005 11:51am] [ mood | cold ] This weekend was pretty cool... Friday, me, Allie and Becki were planning on going to Colasanti's but when we got there it was closed :[ So then, as we're standing outside of the closed gate, Becki looks at me and Allie and she's like "Well alright..Let's go have some fun" lol, so we drove through Leamington, Ruthven, Lakeshore, just everywhere. Then we stopped in Leamington at DQ to eat some dinner and then we went to Wal Mart :] Everything in Leamington is SO cheap, dear god. I got some fishnets for Halloween and such and they were only like 50 cents and 1$, I was amazed. And then I got some lip balm, and it was cheap and smelt like Pineapples, heh... So, we just kept driving, got Becki's mom from her meeting and then we dropped her off and went to Zehrs and then back to Becki's for a little while. Me and Allie took some pictures on her webcam and then she drove us home. That was a really fun night, although I was completely carred-out, lol. Then yesterday was Brennan's birthday, so me and Jordan went and met up with him and we walked to Blockbuster and then we came back and met up with Sean and Danielle. We watched The Longest Yard and then me and Jordan rode home...I was soo tired lastnight. I don't know what I'm doing today. It's really cold out and my dad has ALL the windows open, crazy bastard.. I'm hungry, and bored :[ someone hangout with me today, lol. I'm out though, ♥ Ameh.

5 RAVES Oh Honey, Let's Go Dancing. [Friday October 14th, 2005 7:15am] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | my class talking.. ] So, I haven't updated in almost a week, due to my asshole of a dad...He changed my password, augh. Nothing's really been new, lol. Umm on Wednesday, me and Allie went to Taco Bell and some guy yelled at me out of his van about my 'fancy hairdo' then we went back to her house and danced a little bit, lol. I imitated the times I was 'the backwards man and when I could walk backwards as fast as you can' and slipped back on her carpet and smacked my head off of her CEMENT floor, haha. Those were some good times, let me tell you. Thenn, she begged, cried, kicked and screamed for me to go with her to Rangers, so I did, being the ultimate bestfriend that I am :] *bats eyelashes* So Emily drove Allie, me, Carly and Becki all out to Essex and we played some games and I scribbled on a napkin, it was fun. Then we came back, and Backi had to use my phone and as it was ringing out of nowhere Josie comes out of the kitchen and Becki makes a gun with her hand and shoots Josie, lmao. It was THE FUNNIEST thing I have ever seen in my life! Oh man, that girl is funnnny. Yesterday was really nice :]] We got to pay 2$ to get out of 4th period to 'go to the football game' but 938439 kids just left and went home. I went to Jordans, we ate pizza and then did absolutely nothing....lolol. Kidding, we took a shower and it was nice...then we layed on his parents bed, lol, and did absolutely nothing. Then we got together with Sean and Danielle and rode our bikes to MacDonalds and then Brennan showed up and we all rode back and ended up just going to the bridge, then me and Jordan drank some coffee and his mom drove me home. I liked the ride home because I wasn't feeling well, so Jordan let me lay on his lap and he was playing with my hair, aww. What a nice boy I've got on my hands. We're suppose to go to Toni Roma's tomorrow :] I'm excited because it's supposively really nice and fancy in there, so I'm going to dress up, lol, and we're going to go on a date, heh. Then we are coming back for Brennan's birthday. My stomache reallllly hurts, times ten. Lately it's like my bodys been rejecting everything I've been eating, I don't like it. Trish said it's a sign I should eat more, but I'm still worried, considering I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Tonight, me, Allie and Becki are going to Colasanti's :]] I'm really excited, lol. I feel like I'm 7 again and going to chase around the goats and throw their food at them, lolol. Oh jeeze...So yeah, that should be a good time... This weekend looks pretty sweet altogether, Colasanti's tonight, Toni Roma's tomorrow, then Sunday who knows what, I'll probably just hang around the neighbourhood with Allie or something, lol. I'm so glad I finished my resume because now I get to just have free time on the computer, woo! I like how you can see my Converse shirt threw my uniform shirt and no one has said anything to me, lol. Good stuff. Well I'm going to end this, and check some other stuff. Later, ♥ xxAMY [this song makes me happy] we used to leave the blue lights on and there was a beat ever since you have been gone it’s all caffeine-free faux punk fatigues said it all before they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep get no harm done no none of them want to fight me combat baby come back baby fight off the lethargy don’t go quietly combat baby said you would never give up easy combat baby come back get back in town I wanna paint it black I wanna get around easy living crowd so flat said it all before they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep I want to be wrong but No one here wants to fight me like you do combat baby come back baby fight off the lethargy don’t go quietly combat baby said you would never give up easy combat baby come back I try to be so nice Compromise Who gets it good? Every mighty mild seventies child Every mighty mild seventies child Beats me Do doo dooo do doo dooo do do dooo do de do doo do doo doo do doo dooo do do dooo do de do doo combat baby come back baby combat baby come back bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye baby combat baby come back how I miss your ranting do you miss my all time lows

5 RAVES We Are Not The Football Team. [Monday October 10th, 2005 2:08pm] [ mood | calm ] Thanksgiving at my sisters yesterday was good :] Although nobody but her and I did anything, it was stressful because she kept yelling at me and throwing food and hot pans at me, lol. She's crazy. Then after dinner, I walked down to Wal-Mart to get some hair bleach and took Ben with me in his sweet ass buggy, then he fell asleep for a half hour, so that was cool. I bought some new lip gloss too and just as I was coming out of the store, I found a brand new eyeliner on the floor, so I took it, lol. Don't worry guys, it wasn't opened or anything, it was one of the ones that have a plastic seal thing so it was cool... Then we came home, I bleached my hair again, it turned kind of orange on me, so I bleached it AGAIN when I woke up this morning, that didn't do much but whatever. And noooooooooooow, I'm waiting for Jordan's grandparents to drop him off at home so I can go to his house :]♥. Ugh, I cleaned my room today :[ Stupid...room. I want to start wearing my winter coat, but I'm not sure if it's cold enough for it, ah well I'll do it anyways. OH YEAH, I forgot to say, I'm pretty sure Alisa likes Jordan again, after Friday night, that was nice...SO if I'm acting like a bitch, she can read this and know why. I don't think I'm rude for putting that, I just don't sugarcoat things and write in code like "Oh at Jordan's Friday, I thought someone liked him and I was trying really hard not to be a jelous bitch" I'm just going to come out and say it. I fucking hate school...and my parents are cooking right now and it's burning my eyes. Where's Jordan? :[[ WELL, I'm going to end this bitch. later, ameh.

3 RAVES The Sky Will Cry. [Sunday October 9th, 2005 11:36am] [ mood | sore ] [ music | 89x warped. ] Lastnight with Trish was awesome :] We walked around downtown contemplating whether to go to the party or not for like 8437584375 hours lolol. Then we got on a bus home, and I left my purse on the bus :[ Then we came back to her house, and she went on MSN and I ate some Michelenas thing, twas good and she ate pizza and we just like...acted stupid on MSN. "Hey baby, whats up" lmao, Trish kept saying that in a really manly voice, lmao. "I'm a pig in a blanket!" [me] *retard voice* "Umm, I don't think pigs have blankets I think they have hay" [Trish] "You make my pelvis hurt" lololol, oh maaaan. Then I was trying to go to sleep but she kept talking to me and then she's like "Alright I'll let you go to sleep" Then I'm like "I'd talk to you but I can't feel one side of my face" Oh man, lastnight was fun :]♥ Today's Thanksgiving, wooo! I LOVE turkey!!! I just had this fight with Allie because I told her how I feel about being second to Emily and everything and she's like "oh, it's okay when I'm second to Jordan though?" I don't ask Jordan to go somewhere then her, so nice way to make a point...Whatever, I really don't need that. But yeah, I should go to my sisters soon, blehh. later, xxAMY!

1 RAVES Well... [Saturday October 8th, 2005 6:17pm] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | Trish's music, lol. ] I haven't really had a chance to update lately, but I'll post some latest shit up. Lastnight, Jordan threw a thing at his house...It was pretty sweet. We all just like threw on some music and danced for like 2 hours, lol. Then Danielle slept over, but my parents didn't know it, aha. Then today :fucking horrible: me and Danielle decided to ride over to Jordans and see him and Sean and then the four of us hungout for a little while, then it was just me and Jordan, and we started out talking about our relationship and how things were going, and we ended up being on a break? Whatever the fuck that means...Then Jordan decided to take it back, and emailed me a sweet email. ♥ But I don't think I can do that anymore times then after today...If we're together now, we're together, but I don't really want to keep this breaking up thing going, I mean I love him and everything times ten, don't get me wrong, but for the sake of having anything left, I don't think it's right to keep doing it. I'm just glad we're together now, and that we didn't break up today, but it benefited our relationship because it was sort of an eye opener, but I'm just glad it's over and I hope we can just start over and forget about these past couple weeks. Tonight, I'm going to a party with Trish :]] That should be pretty sweet. I'm kind of scared because I'm not going to know anyone, buuut it should be fine, lol. Then I'm crashing here with her :] But I should go... [Jordan, feel better, I love you, call me at my sisters tomorrow]

5 RAVES Jordan ♥ [Wednesday October 5th, 2005 10:18pm] [ mood | sad ] So, I just talked to you on the phone and I just want to make sure we're alright, because whenever you say it's fine, I'm never sure if your just saying it to be nice... I didn't mean for it to seem like I was hiding anything from you, but I just didn't think to mention it out of nowhere, since you didn't ask. I just don't want things to be weird, because I hate it when their like that :[ And I just need you to understand that he's just a really good friend of mine, nothing more. I love you alot... xxAmy

3 RAVES Sun child, your a sun child [Tuesday October 4th, 2005 3:09pm] [ mood | hungry ] School today was so long and dumb...I was in such a bad mood by 4th, I kept yelling at Brittany, Cory and Adam, but they were being gay, so it didn't matter.. I have a stupid fucking dental appointment today, their going to give me a seringe I ALREADY HAVE ONE FUCKERS!! I just made me some pudding :] I'm hungry. I have Math homework tonight, yes I'm doing it, I don't want to fail and I'm only failing by 4% so I can still catch up, annnd I have a Careers assignment, well 2 because I still haven't handed one in and the other is due Friday. *wipes sweat off forehead* It's going to be a busy night tonight, lol. UGH, speaking of SWEAT! More like...fucking pools, but we started football in Gym today and I swear to god I died and came back to life. We were just doing drills and some ab stuff today, but jesus christ...I was partners with Trish, and at the end of the class, I had welts up and down my wrists and she almost broke 2 of my fingers. It was so grosse afterwards, my hair was like soaked with sweat and the back of my neck...Ewwww, I want to throw up. Soo, thanksgiving weekend this weekend eh? I LOVE Turkey! It's too bad Jordan's going away though, I know he doesn't want to :[[ Allie wants me to go to her grandma's in the states on Sunday for dinner and then she wants me to go shopping with her at the big mall over there. Pantie's fo' sho. Well, I'm going to go raid the fridge now...Ughhh so hungry. Later, xxAMY ♥

4 RAVES IM blue. [Monday October 3rd, 2005 4:52pm] [ mood | giddy ] Yo' listen up here's the story About a little guy that lives in a blue world And all day and all night and everything he sees Is just blue, like him inside and outside Blue his house with the blue little window And a blue corvette and everything is blue for him And himself and everybody around 'cause he ain't got nobody to listen…[fades out] I'm blue... Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die I'm blue... Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die [Instrumental] I have a blue house with a blue window Blue is the colour of all that I wear Blue are the streets and all the trees are too I have a girlfriend and she is so blue Blue are the people here that walk around Blue like my corvette it’s in and outside Blue are the words I say and what I think Blue are the feelings that live inside me I'm blue... Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die I'm blue... Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die ... inside and outside Blue his house with the blue little window And a blue corvette and everything is blue for him And himself and everybody around 'cause he ain't got nobody to listen…[fades out] I'm blue... Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die I'm blue... Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die Da ba dee da ba die

4 RAVES Stop It, Come On You Know I Can't Help It. I Got The Mic And You've Got The Moshpit. [Monday October 3rd, 2005 3:56pm] [ mood | fat day. ] [ music | Jimmy Eat World ] It was so grosse and humid out today, ugh. School was...long. I woke up at 8:10 am because lastnight I had the worst sleep of my life. It was like Florida in my room, lol, so I came downstairs and slept on the loveseat, my mom was on the couch...So I finally fell asleep at like 12:30, then I woke up at 2, then 4, then 5 then 6 then my mom woke me up for good at like 7 and I fell back asleep. me = idiot. So I wake up all mad and in a rush, having a stroke so I throw some pants on and grab my belt and run downstairs and I'm all "DAD! DAD! I NEED YOU TO DRIVE ME TO SCHOOL LIKE NOW!" Then he did and I got there right before the first bell. Worst morning ever... Gym wasn't too bad, we all layed around for like 45 minutes, then we played a game of soccer baseball, fucking soccer baseball, lol. I went to Careers, yeah that's right folks, I didn't skip it. I saw Mr Innocente he's like "Hey Amy, how've ya been? Haven't seen you inawhile." Then we talked teeth and went our seperate ways, lol. My fucking stitches came out today, jesus christ. Dissolvable my ASS! I chewed that thing out like a peice of steak! One of the top ones is like half out right now, it's quite annoying... Today, I am meeting Jordan at the mall and we are going shoe shopping :]] I'm quite excited, let me tell you. I need new shoes soo bad! I'm like those kids in Africa that walk around barefoot all the time...I can fit a fucking lip gloss in the bottom of my shoe, that's sad...lol. I need to shower though *smells hair* Even though I took like the best bath of my life lastnight, I was sweating all day and all lastnight. Attractive, I know... Well I'm going to go upstairs and get all dolled up *bites finger* later, xxAMY! ♥

1 RAVES By The Way, Your Hands Were Shaking. [Sunday October 2nd, 2005 1:33am] [ mood | sympathetic ] [ music | Title And Registration - Death Cab For Cutie ] Today was just a good day altogether. I went out with my sister for a little bit, then she dropped me off at Jordans :] And I was just really happy to see him...Then we got together with Sean and then Brennan and then later on, Danielle, and we went to MacDonalds for dinner, then when we got back we got together with Matt and Alex. We watched Boogeyman at Jordans, then I had to come to my sisters to babysit Ben, and then they all came over and we watched some of Lords Of Dog Town...Thenn, as everyone was leaving, my sister came home and what really makes me mad is when my sister comes home and she sees like say me and Jordan here alone, or that I have friends over. I mean, I am giving up MY Saturday night to be here while she's out partying until 4 am, and so what if I don't want to sit in the house all alone? Most of my friends live very close to here anyways, or so what if one night me and Jordan decide to hangout while I'm babysitting. We've never given her a reason to think we were doing something we weren't suppose to, like my parents trust us alone in my room and stuff, so why shouldn't she? She's never come home to a messy house, Ben's never been in any harm, he's always been fast asleep and the house has always looked better then it did before she left, and to be honest, she rips me off most of the time when she pays me, so I'm doing more then I should...Maybe I should stop babysitting for a little while, let her have to run around an hour before she goes out to look for one and let her realize how good she has it. Anyways... I had a really amazing night tonight with Jordan. Just something about today/tonight, made me so happy and everytime I looked at him I just couldn't help but smile...♥. Please feel better baby :] My sister better drive me home when she gets back. I don't have anything with me and I'm going to one of Jordan's family dinners tomorrow, so I want to be home to get ready and stuff. Rawr... I seriously HATE school. Grade 11 isn't any better then the 2 years before it...Highschool just gets worse, god damnit. I'm going to end this badboy with some PICTURES, WOOO! ( in )

2 RAVES You Better Sing Now While You Can [Saturday October 1st, 2005 11:43am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | A Sunday - Jimmy Eat World. ] Today, I think I'm hanging out with Jordan :] I'm pretty sure we're hanging out with everyone else too, because we haven't done that in awhile, it seems. My dads really mad at me for ripping the screen lastnight, but it's not my fault he was IN A COMA! What if I was being raped and murdered in my own driveway? And screaming for them to wake up? By the time morning came, my mom would've found me dead in the driveway next to her car when she was on her way to work. Good way to be alert guys... My sister wants me to babysit for her tonight, I agreed just because I didn't care, lol. And she said with my babysitting money, she would take me around today and look for something, lol. I can't say because I'm going to surprise Jordan...But I had them before, and he secretly likes them, and I think their sweet, soo...heh. I really need to shower today, my hair is like a weird kind of greasy...It's not disgustingly shiny and wet looking buuut it's like...the kind where you can't do anything with your hair because the grease just ways it down, if that makes sense...Ah well, I just need to shower. I want to eat first, god damnit I'm starving. Ew, my medication is lodged in my throat, lmao. GO DOWN DEVIL!!! Ahahah. I hate when my dads mad at me :[ Well I'm going to go see if my lunch is ready, wooooo! Later, xxAMY!

2 RAVES Kicking And Screaming. [Saturday October 1st, 2005 12:38am] [ mood | are you serious. ] [ music | Jordans voice on the phone :) ] Tonight was awesome :]♥ I went to Jordans afterschool, and then we watched The O.C and then we went to The Mall. We ate some Taco Bell, saw Trish, Cory&Alex and Sharon there. Oh, and we met this couple that looks exactly like us, it's weird and they stalked us all night and then we talked, lol. That was funny...Then me&Jordan just walked around and then we went to see Corpse Bride. It was a really good movie, the songs were kind of...well, dissapointing, lol. But it was a good movie...I just had alot of fun altogether ♥ I love my boyfriend...alot. Okay, this is rediculous. When I got home, I didn't have my key because I left my backpack at Jordans. So, I knock on the front door thinking "my parents are home, they'll wake up and open the door for me" Buuut, that didn't happen. So their bedroom windows open and I'm screaming at them "OPEN THE DOOR!" and I start to cry out of frustration and I was cold. So, their still not opening the door, and I'm still not in my house. SO then 30 minutes and 2 bleeding knuckles later, I decide to rip open the basement window screen, which btw is about the size of 2 computer monitors, and force my body through this barbwire screening, steel gate of hell! And I managed to come out of it with only some cuts on my arms and legs. My parents are fucking insane. WHO sleeps that deep?! NO ONE...I'm pretty sure the dead heard the noise I was making. I am so unimpressed mom and dad...Bastards. So yeah, after WWII, Jesus Christ...I'm hungry, and tired, and cranky...Blahh. Niiight. xxAMY!

2 RAVES [Thursday September 29th, 2005 8:42pm] [ mood | calm ] Today was pretty sweet...John came over afterschool and we went downtown where Shaun peirced his lip. I also saw little Shannon, lol. She slapped my ass and ran away, she's so little and cute. Then we just walked around downtown for a little while, and then came here and ate some dinner. Then John decided he would be cool and throw Jello at me? Not cool...lol. We ran into Celine and Steph but they were stoned out of their minds, so I just sat there and laughed at them while they waited for their bus, lmao... I didn't really get to talk to Jordan much today :[ But he was working on his Prayer Service and he was out too. I can't wait to see him tomorrow :] and go on our date, heh. My stomache hurts, blehh. I ate alot today, my mom said my teeth are healing pretty good (thank god) I want to be able to kiss Jordan again! My lips are all grosse and chappy and repulsing, grr. I have a headache and I'm not sure what I want to do right now. It's not even 9 yet, so I don't want to be inside...Allie's at work, so I can't go for a walk with her, Laura's not online, she's away. I want to be outside and do something! No one lives around me, lol. I hate it. Hmm...I think I'm going to go upstairs and work on my belly button ring, lol. I'm out. :]♥ Corpse Bride tomorrow, heh. xxAMY!

1 RAVES Alot Like Love. [Wednesday September 28th, 2005 7:52pm] [ mood | itchy. ] [ music | Jordan's voice. ]

3 RAVES [Wednesday September 28th, 2005 11:45am] [ mood | ♥ ] [ music | Crooked Teeth - Death Cab For Cutie ] So yesterday, Jordan came and saw me :]] It meant alot to me because I've had like 3 people who are my supposive "best friends" say they were going to comee see me, but didn't, so it's nice to see someone come through. When he got to my house, I was making us Kraft Dinner and he knocked on the door and I had my ice packs strapped to each side of my face, and he laughed so hard, lmao...So I got embarassed and took them off, lolol. Then we ate and he did his homework and then we watched Robots upstairs. Afterwards, he fell asleep on me, lol. (he tends to do that, alot) I think what put him to sleep was how I was massaging his scalp. It was soo cute! Because he was still asleep but he would slide his arms up the sides of my shirt and then just hug me, lol. And I think he was dreaming because he kept twitching and stuff. And then when he woke up, out of nowhere he just started kissing my stomache, and then we took the bus home :] What a guyyyy ♥ Then I came to my sisters and accomplished eating some spaghetti, heh, that's right, I ATE, lol. And then some pudding, it was good. Then I went to bed... Today, my mom might be picking me up, but I kind of wanted to get my bike from Jordans, so I think I might surprise him for when he gets home from school :] (I hope he doesn't read this in computers, lmao) But yeah, I think I'll stroll on over around like...2:45 and then say hi and then let him do his papers, and ride my bike home that way I have it for when I need to meet up with him and such... Yeah, I'll tell my mom she doesn't have to pick me up, I could use some exercise, lolol. Well, Char's making pancakes and I have the munchies... later. xxAMY ♥ ( Soul.Meets.Body )

3 RAVES Dirty Minds, Tell Me It's A Dream! Dirty Life, I LOVE A Filthy Scene. [Tuesday September 27th, 2005 11:00am] [ mood | Swollen. ] [ music | Ima Robot. ] My Doctor calls me lastnight and tells me that "an increase in swelling will occur" AN INCREASE IN SWELLING EH!? My face is the size of my nephew! I love how like Doctors and Dentists say things in a calm manor so you don't get freaked and then when it happens it turns out what they said was a complete understatement, bastards... Today should be alot better then yesterday, Jordan said he would try his hardest to come over, just as long as he doesn't have alot of computer homework, because the rest he can just do here. So I'm really happy about that because he couldn't come yesterday :] And Allie said she might stop by around like 6 or something after all the stuff she has to do today...Just having my friends and Jordan around me makes me really happy. And I found out that I can talk and not have to worry about air pockets, it's just that I can't drink through straws or go outside when it's windy because the air will definately get in my gums, so I'm definately happy about being able to talk, lol. :]]♥ I really like having my sister on MSN because when everyone is at school and I'm at home sick or something, she's always on and we talk for like an hour. She painted her living room a Cranberry colour, lol. We just painted that thing dark brown, so I'm wondering what Shaun will say when he gets home. He's been in Peterborough at his friends cottage since Sunday morning and she's scared to be home alone and all that, so I told her tonight I would sleep over so she doesn't have to be scared :] Because I'm ever so sweet like that. Plus she's picking me up more jello then anyone can handle, lol. I'm allowing Jordan to cook for me today :S I'm a little scared being as all he does is microwave things......But I guess I'll trust him, lol. Hmm...I'm thinking about going to school to get my Careers project, but then again I don't want to walk allllll the way to school, lol. I'll just call my mom and tell her my locker number and combination and what binder it is, etc. I definately have to get that project done, late or not. Is today garbage day? hmm...lol. Well I'm gonna go try and find something to do...Maybe take the garbage out and all that. I gotta start earning my allowance and such. I think it's like Googles 7th Anniversary or something : CORPSE BRIDE - - THIS FRIDAY! I'm soo excited :] Me and Jordan are going, on a date, ewwwwwwww, lolol. Well I'm out, laterrrrr. -toothy.

1 RAVES 100 things you may not know :) [Monday September 26th, 2005 7:51pm] [ mood | groggy ] 1. My favourite colours are black and hot pink 2. My eyes turn dark green when I cry, but they are normally dark brown 3. I hate school 4. I am in love 5. Me and my boyfriend Jordan have been dating for 1 Year and 3 Months now 6. My brother-in-law owns a tattoo shop 7. I got my wisdom teeth removed today 8. The first thing I notice on people is their eyes 9. I want to be a SuicideGirl really badly. 10. I am not allergic to anything. 11. My favourite holidays are Christmas and Halloween 12. I am extremely emotional 13. My favourite ice cream is Heavenly Hash 14. I love cheesecake 15. My birthday is December 28th 16. Sometimes I hate my bestfriends 17. I really like listening to music 18. My most favourite people in the world are the people I see the least :( 19. I have 3 cats 20. I love going for car rides even if it's just around the block 21. I have a scar in the middle of my forehead that looks like Sailor Moons scar. 22. I am addicted to flavoured water 23. I love the stars 24. I am definately a romantic 25. I love to laugh 26. A simple hug from my boyfriend makes everything go away 27. Adam Lazzara from Taking Back Sunday is the man. 28. Nirvana is my least favourite band 29. I am a 2 year old at heart 30. I love watching movies that make me cry with my bestfriends 31. Jumping on my bed makes me happy 32. I get peircings because I can 33. I have 2 freckles on my nose 34. I have an older sister named Charlene and she is awesome 35. I am nice to people I hate because I don't want to hurt their feelings 36. I absolutely despise The Lord Of The Rings movies, but I am in love with the game 37. I am a LiveJournal addict 38. I can't wait until I'm old enough to get tattoos 39. I love drinking tea 40. Vegatables are the best things in the world 41. I really really like eating Sushi and drinking Strawberry Tea with my most favourite person ever 42. My toe nails are currently painted black 43. Anthony Querin is the worst person I have ever encountered 44. I love thunderstorms 45. I like watching movies 46. Summer and Fall are my favourite seasons 47. I hate fighting with my boyfriend 48. Pizza Hut is the best restaurant to eat at 49. Grand Bend is the best place in the world. 50. When I'm older I want to live in a loft and own a pug named Lola and make her wear little tu tu's 51. I'm always on MSN late at night 52. I love being outside and doing new things 53. Grade 11 blows 54. I secretly want my neighbours dead 55. I love swimming 56. I have a polka dot bikini but I don't like wearing it because I hate my body 57. Will&Grace is the best show ever 58. I think most vampire movies are stupid 59. I like going on dates and acting like an adult 60. I'm on Alesse 61. My math teacher is a pushover 62. My mom has 2 tattoos 63. I enjoy writing notes while I'm in class 64. I want to go to Warped Tour atleast once 65. I'm going to 89x Stole Christmas this year 66. I like pretending my bike is a car and ride all over the place 67. Starbucks makes me feel like I'm in college 68. My birthmark is purple and blue 69. Hello Kitty is wonderful 70. I hate rollercoasters 71. Mr Noodles make me gag 72. My least favourite things are onions, tomatoes and mushrooms 73. Shows about Law bore me 74. I dislike taking medicine 75. I love building snowmen in the winter 76. I am going to dress up for Halloween until I'm 30 77. I have a freckle on my boob 78. I only have 4 pairs of underwear that aren't thongs 79. My bed is the most comfortable thing ever 80. I live 2 streets away from one of my closest friends 81. I think The Detroit River looks pretty when it's raining 82. Fishing is my guilty pleasure 83. I could listen to The Used everyday for the rest of my life 84. I cannot wait to drive 85. I love pasta 86. Freezies are the best 87. I used to live in Essex 88. I miss playing with Barbies 89. I get my friends to cut my hair and then say that I hate it 90. I love pajama pants 91. My favourite time of the day is from 6 until 9 92. I live near Giant Tiger 93. I love cheese 94. I have a stray cat that lives on my porch named Orangy 95. I love the names Madeline and Keagan for girls 96. I hate the taste of cough medicine 97. My boyfriend is deathly allergic to bees 98. I think it's funny when people sometimes fall 99. I have my lip, eyebrow, and bellybutton peirced 100. I like filling things like this out

1 RAVES Kill Me Pills. [Monday September 26th, 2005 3:26pm] [ mood | ughh ] Today has to be the WORST day of my life. My widsom teeth are out, just to make it official. I am in so much pain right now, I make child birth look like a tickle fight. I have blood all over my shirt and my face and my hands, it's so grosse. I fucking hate this...I'm not allowed to eat solids today, my mom didn't know that and she bought me some cheesecake and then I ate it and my dad was like "What are you doing? Your not suppose to be eating that!" lol..Then I tried to eat some apple juice but it got in my stitches and stung x10. I can't do anyyyyything...I just want Jordan to come and hold me and be here so bad :( I feel like shit. My mouth hurts, and I pissed off my boyfriend. Jacki said she was going to come and see me if her mom said yes, and now she's sleeping. Jordan : I understand that you couldn't come over, and I'm not mad or anything. I didn't want to fight with you online, I just wanted to talk to you :( When I said you didn't have to come over tomorrow if you didn't want to, even if you didn't have any homework, was because I feel bad that me getting my wisdom teeth out and everything is making you have to be all paniced and rearrange your week. I didn't mean anything by it, I just wanted to save you the stress. ♥. So I hope you understand what my intentions were...Please don't be mad at me. I love you alot...And I appreciate you even trying to see me today, alot. :] It means alot to me. And I don't think you chose not to see me, I didn't mean it like that. If you want to talk to me, you can call me and I will attempt to talk, lol. Or you can reply to my email, whichever. :[ im sorry. "Yeah you'd like to be able to eat pasta, toothy." lmfao. Ughhh, why me? ( For.Jordan )

6 RAVES This Is A Call. [Sunday September 25th, 2005 2:15pm] [ mood | creative ] [ music | Mae. ] I had some fun taking pictures today because I have none of my new hair...lol.

1 RAVES Call Me A Safe Bet, I'm Betting I'm Not. [Sunday September 25th, 2005 10:51am] [ mood | sore ] [ music | the vacuum >:( ] My sister really needs to stop calling me anytime before 11 am. She wants me to watch Ben from like 1 - 4 because her and Lacey want to go to the states. And I tell her me and Jordan are hanging out, then I think... Me and Jordan...no one else home...Ben sleeps all those hours :] So I agree. lol. My jaw hurts really bad today, argh. Well I'm going to eat my Mozerella Sticks. Laterrrr.

0 RAVES The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot. [Sunday September 25th, 2005 1:15am] [ mood | loved ] You are calm and reposed let your beauty unfold pale white like the skin stretched over your bones spring keeps you ever close you are second hand smoke you are so fragile and thin standing trial for your sins holding onto yourself the best you can you are the smell before the rain you are the blood in my veins...

6 RAVES Tell them that I realize that everyone who lives will someday die and die alone. [Saturday September 24th, 2005 11:41am] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | I will play my game beneath the spin light - Brand Nizzle. ] Lastnight was really sweet :] Me,Jordan,Sean,Danielle and Brennan all went to Tecumseh Golf and goofy golfed, but then it was getting boring, so we moved onto the Driving Range, that was so much fun...I was extremely bad at goofy golf :[ But I wasn't too bad at the Driving Range. Everytime I'd swing really really good, Jordan would be doing something else and miss it, lol. Then we went to MacDonalds and then Brennans dad picked us up and we went back to Jordans and watched Almost Famous. Excellent movie. Jordan fell asleep on me, twice. Danielle and Sean fell asleep on the couch, lol. I'm pretty sure Brennan stayed up the whole time...Everyone was really tired from golfing and stuff. Then around 12, Jordan's mom drove me home. I feel like crap today :[ My stomache really hurts and I don't know why. My fucking jaw feels like someone held me down and kicked me in the face 4 times over...Fucking wisdom teeth...Teeth of hell, lol. I hate them so much I can't wait to get them out, oh that and the fact that I might die? Hmm. Somethings bothering Jordan today...That or he hates me. He doesn't seem too happy :[ Well I'm going to go now. ( Fuck.Off? )

2 RAVES Fucking...Shit. [Friday September 23rd, 2005 4:32pm] [ mood | angry ] [ music | Ben screaming like a fucking retard... ] Today was a dressdown day at school, that was pretty sweet. I hungout with Jacki during 2nd, we went down to the River :] It was awesome. We found these ribbons, and they were red and yellow and so we tied them around our wrists. Jacki's is yellow and mine's red. Then I put a red one in my hair, lol...Then one our way back to school we ran into Emily and she asked us to come to her house and eat Kraft Dinner with her so we did, lol. Then when I came back to school, I had 393489 people come up to me and tell me Jordan's been looking for me, lol. And I guess he thought I was dead? Cosmo was alright, we had a free day so we all just hungout. Shelby did my hair and I painted my nails and sat with Ashley..Wasn't too bad. Then came Math...dun dun dun. I was in a really good mood, up until Anthony Querin had to be fucking born. That kid has had something against me since the beginning of the year. Like...Do I know you? I've never even talked to him up until Math class, and I guess I killed his dog or something like that, that's what I'm guessing based on the way he treats me. Him and all his gay grade 10 friends all sit there and look at me, smiling. So I ask "What? If your going to say something, say it now" So they look at eachother and their like "Should I say it or should you? *gay laugh*" I'm like "ooook buddy" So then like 20 mins later, near the end of the class, Anthony's like (to his friends) "Let's just stare at her" So I have these 5 idiotic grade ten boys turned around staring at me with these stupid grins on their faces and I'm just staring back at them with no expression on my face whatsoever and Anthony's like "She's got a face of stone" and then yet again to follow *gay laugh*. Anthony Querin is definately my new enemy...So then my teacher waits until everyones out of the class and he's like "Amy, what's going on with you and Anthony?" I'm like "Uhhh, he's an asshole" Then he's like "Do you want me to say something?" You didn't before, why would you now? Did you want to wait until Monday, when I'm not there, or maybe Tuesday when I'm not there again, and then you can say something but be not so serious so then Anthony thinks your kidding and nothing changes? Alright, that seems like a good idea, you fucking retard. Then when I come home, my dads being a complete asshole, and starts throwing all these dishes near me and saying "This isn't clean" Then fucking wash it? And then I have to argue with him for like 10 minutes for like 5$ to go out with my friends, well I'm sorry that I don't have a job. I've been putting resumes out, but it hasn't been doing anything, so why don't you find me a job, asshole. Some people are so fucking stupid, I could kill myself. Ben is now running around my house like a maniac...Yeah dad, he's sooo cute right? Yeah, headaches are adorable. I just want my boyfriend to hold me while I cry about my day :[

3 RAVES I ask you and I know I need a change. [Thursday September 22nd, 2005 4:03pm] [ mood | hot ] Dear Jordan, I'm really sorry about today, I didn't think you would get so upset. I don't flirt with guys, and I'm sorry that you think that. But I'm not a little slut that goes around and flirts with everyone, not saying you said that but I'm just saying, lol. I don't want to do this, I don't want us not talking, I want things to go back to normal. If there's anything I can do please tell me :[ I'm sorry... I don't know if you got my message on your machine, but I said that I was going to not talk to you and wait until you were ready to come and talk to me, because I tried that today and it didn't work... Are we going to be okay? I love you, alot.

1 RAVES I'm sick of writing every song. [Wednesday September 21st, 2005 5:16pm] [ mood | full ] [ music | Head Club - TBS ] "Our Lady Peace is sex to my ears like you wouldn't beleive" ahahahahah... Today was kind of long, I didn't like it. My poor Jordan! He has so much to do today :[[ That poor kid is going to have a fucking stroke at age 16 with all this schoolwork..♥ It's so hot out :\ I went to Herman with Shelby, we caught like the last 6 mins of the game, haha. Then she went to Kyle's and I walked back with some of his friends.. Ouch, my knees hurt, I need to stop sitting like this. Rawr... ITS JUST NOT WORD GET OUT, NOT WORD GET OUT... Taking Back Sunday is soo good I could just slit my own throat sometimes.

1 RAVES This Photograph Is Proof. [Tuesday September 20th, 2005 5:16pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | You know how I do - Tbs ] ( And.Would.YOU.Tell.All.Your.Friends?. )

1 RAVES I Never Said I'd Take This Lying Down. [Tuesday September 20th, 2005 3:45pm] [ mood | hopeful ] Today was a verrrrry long day :\ I really hope this cold goes away soon, I woke up this morning at 6:30 am and sneezed 18 times. It was insane... Me and Jordan were suppose to go to Taco Tuesday in the Courtyard Cafe but just as we were like 3 people away from the counter they said they were sold out, that was very dissapointing. So instead we went to the cafe where everythings $200.00, lol. Stupid cafe, I was enraged, let me tell you... My gym teacher got mad at me today because I wouldn't do anything, she's so stupid sometimes. So tonight, me&Danielle are suppose to go see Just Like Heaven, a little chick flick for the two of us, lol. I asked my mom if I could get some moula off of her and she said the usual - ask my dad. So I haven't approached him yet. But hey, I DID offer to walk there to spare the busfair situation, I'd say that's well deserving of 5 lousy dollars... Fuck, my fucking nose is soo runny, I want to cut it off! GOD DAMNIT... I really hope my dad gives me money, he can be a cheap bastard sometimes...Or tends to make a big deal about 10$. Like cmon dad, it's ONLY 10$. Well I'm going to go upstairs and jam to my new CD *thanks so much Jordan ♥ <- I love him, heh* Poor guy..he has 3 hours worth of homework :[[ Did someone say TAKING BACK SUNDAY!?

8 RAVES You've got me right where you want me. [Monday September 19th, 2005 4:10pm] [ mood | sick ] I was soo sick at school today :[[ Ughhh, my mom wouldn't let me go home because she says a cold is worth coming home from school for...So I stayed the whole day and "toughed it out" like she said to. Then I came home and ate some Cream Of Broccoli soup ♥ It made me feel a bit better :] My nose is still being a retard though. I need some juice, stat. It's nice out right now, it keeps getting darker off and on and the wind is really nice. I heard it's suppose to rain sometime tonight, or tomorrow or something from my gym teacher. Tomorrow me&Jordan decided we're gonna go to the Courtyard Cafe for lunch and get us some taco's :] That should be sweet, I heard they make really good food. Gahhh, I can't breathe! I hope I feel better tomorrow, I don't feel like going through all this again, blehhh... [Wisdom Teeth Pullout = 1 week] dun dun dunnnnn! I'm out playa's, lmao. later, ♥.

0 RAVES Middle Of Nowhere. [Sunday September 18th, 2005 1:13pm] [ mood | weird ] Don't get mad if I'm laughing Blame the caffeine for all the 5 am phone calls I haven't slept a single night in over a month And not even once did you start to make sense to me Well maybe I'm a little bit slow, or just consistently inconsistent She said, "Unpredictability's my responsibility, baby." But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off back to the middle of nowhere They chewed me up and then they spit me out And I'm not supposed to let it bother me But maybe I'm a little bit weak - I let my frailty take the wheel She said, "Maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you. baby." But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off back to the middle of nowhere But you're waiting at the door where everybody's hanging out just like they hung out before You didn't have to do it but you did it to say That you didn't have to do it but you would anyway To give you something to go on when I go off back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on when I go off back to the middle of nowhere To give you something to go on - to go on back to the middle of nowhere

0 RAVES [Sunday September 18th, 2005 11:27am] [ mood | what to do today...what to do. ] [ music | cars and such.. ] Lastnight was reallly fun :]] Me, Jordan, Sean&Danielle all went to Little Ceasars and got some pizza's for dinner then we caught the bus to Forest Glade to go bowling. It was so awesome, because it was a 'Rock N Bowl' so Sean kept like booty dancing and then when the techno came on me and Danielle were doing the robot and stuff, it was great. We played about 3 or 4 games, by the time we were at our last game Jordan was dead tired and my arm felt like it was going to fall off... So we walked through the trail and went down Riverdale then Sean walked Danielle home and Jordan waited with me for my bus :] He kept saying "Let me double ride you to the mall just so I know that your safe and so I can watch you get on your bus, please just let me double ride you" MEANWHILE back at the ranch, he can barely stand he's so tired, so I refused and told him not to worry and if ANYONE tried to attack me I would spray them in the eyes like I do to Shannon, and he agreed and told me to call him when I got home...lol. I finished my first pack of birth control yesterday *woot woot*. I talked to my sister and she told me I have to wait until next Sunday to start the second one, lol, she's such a goof. I'm like "Char I finished my pack yesterday, when do I start the new one?" She's like "You took your last pill yesterday? Ahh, everythings going to plan" lol, retard. I had the WORST dream lastnight :[[ I hate dreams like that :cries: Yar.. Hmmm, I have nothing to do today...Hmmmmm. Well I'm out ♥.

2 RAVES For Jordan ♥ [Saturday September 17th, 2005 1:07pm] [ mood | :) ] [ music | The Used. ] The singer finished singing and she's walking out The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out And it's hard to say how I feel today For years gone by and I cried It's hard to say that I was wrong It's hard to say I miss you Since you've been gone, it's not the same My worries weigh the world, how I used to be And everything, I'm cold, seems a plague in me And it's hard to say how I feel today For years gone by and I cried It's hard to say that I was wrong It's hard to say I miss you Since you've been gone, it's not the same It's hard to say I held my tongue It's hard to say if only Since you've been gone, it's not the same Worse than the fear it's the lie you told a thousand times before Worse than a fear it's the knife And it's hard to say how I feel today For years gone by and I cried It's hard to say that I was wrong It's hard to say I miss you Since you've been gone, it's not the same It's hard to say I held my tongue It's hard to say if only Since you've been gone, I'm not the same It's hard to say (God, it's hard to say) Since you've been gone, I'm not the same

4 RAVES Regardless, my pictures...They don't line your mirror. [Saturday September 17th, 2005 11:05am] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | noisy machines across the street ] Yesterday was fun :] The beginning was kind of stupid because me&Jordan were both switching our moods constantly, ugh, I didn't like it at all... Then we both realized we were being dumb and apologized to eachother and then we had a pillow fight and I chased him around his basement :] ahhh, good times...lol. Then, we went down to the Walkerville area to this auditorium type building, and watched Jordan's cousins play, along with another one...They were both really entertaining. Then we bussed home to meet up with Matt,Brennan,Greg and Jerry, and we all went to Greg's to watch Going The Distance. I was so hyper when we got home, I did a ninja roll right off the bus into the WET grass, lmao and I kept kicking things like trees, lawnchairs, doors, tables, lol, Jordan's like "Did you take SPEED this morning Amy, I've never seen you this hyper before" haha that was fun...Then me and Jordan went back to his house and watched some T.V before his mom drove me home. Poor guy, he was so tired...So yah, that was a pretty sweet Friday night :]. Today, I'm pretty sure me&Danille are hanging out, wooooo! I don't know what she wants to do, lol. Hopefully nothing involving money because I'm pooooooor! God damnit...But I'm sure we can find something to do without spending money. Sean&Danielle want me and Danielle to meet up with Jordan and Sean later on tonight after we're all done hanging out...Sean said he would tell Jordan when he talked to him this morning. I'm sooo hungry I could diiiiie. Ahahah, speaking of dying, yesterday in Math, I kept saying I had cancer and Brittany's like "AMY! STOP SAYING YOU HAVE CANCER!" lolol... Well I'm going to get me some breakfaaaaaast! later, ♥.

3 RAVES [Thursday September 15th, 2005 9:14pm] [ mood | good ] Today was pretty sweet...nothing too spectacular. Afterschool, I had an HOUR LONG detention *shoots self in head* and then Shannon waited for me outside of it for like a half hour, lol. Then her and I waited for Allie to get out of band, ughhh, she was sooo long we almost killed ourselves. Then, the three of us bussed downtown and went to the shop :] Allie got her tragus re peirced, Shannon got...a stopper, lol and Shaun stretched my ears for me, it hurt but I think it looks pretty sweet, heh... Then we all bussed back home, I ran to my house to switch sweaters while Shannon waited at the dentist office at the corner, and we were on our way, lol. We were walking down Elrose towards her house, and I take a deep breath and I'm like "I love fall" then I twist my ankle off the sidewalk and almost fall to my death, lmao. So we just went to her house, walked around for a little bit, talked about some old times at the park, then we sat at the park, lol... "Shannon, if I have to answer that your getting hit" hahaha...Then we went to Tara's and Britt was there and we painted our nails, lolol. I'm so glad tomorrow's Friday! I'm pretty sure me&Jordan are doing something :]] Speaking of the devil, I can't get ahold of him for the life of me right now :cries: Rawr. Well, I'm gonna go continue talking to Eveliiiiine!

6 RAVES So get the fuck out of my face. [Wednesday September 14th, 2005 11:21pm] [ mood | cold ] ...latenight MSN conversations. "no you don't" ... "sure I do" "This hamsters tipped it's water dish over one too many times"

1 RAVES Fuck I can't this kill me, let go.. [Wednesday September 14th, 2005 8:06pm] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | Bliiiink. ] It just fucking hurts... alot.

5 RAVES Rawr. [Wednesday September 14th, 2005 3:16pm] [ mood | sick ] I didn't go to school today in the morning, I was soo tired and sick, ughh... Then my mom drove me to school, and then I came home. I have no idea what I'm doing this weekend...I'm pretty sure me&Danielle are suppose to hangout on Saturday, that should be sweet. I just can't decide what we're going to do yet... Cosmotology is seriously the stupidest class in the world. Today, we watched this video where the old guy would take girls with super long hair, and cut it really, really short. Like, wtf are you doing buddy? Those girls were so pretty, and now they look like boys... I hate when my mom cooks with onions, it makes my eyes burn and water. Oh, so I guess our creepy old neighbour from across the street keeps trying to get in our house...My mom said he was banging on the door at like 9 am yesterday morning, but first he was looking in her bedroom window...What a creep. So now, we have to constantly lock our door. [My mom]. "He probably wants to steal our underwear" [me]. "He better not, my underwears expensive!" [My mom]. "I'm serious" [Me]. "Me too!!" lmao. That guy is way creepy. I'm going to go make something to eat and drink some juice... I feel like SHIT! later... me

0 RAVES We never wanted him here, he showed up anyways. [Tuesday September 13th, 2005 4:38pm] [ mood | annoyed ] Today I went to my stupid fucking Wisdom Tooth Orientation, that was a bunch fun....I love when people put their hands in my mouth and almost tear out my lip ring, it feels great. September 23rd - surgery on teeth...I say "book me an appointment ASAP" and you give me 2 weeks from now...Fucking nurses. Well, I'm going to ride my bike to Jordan's now in the hot steamy weather...If no one hears from me in 2 days I had a heat stroke and died. byeeee.

1 RAVES Without it all.... [Monday September 12th, 2005 7:35pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [Some quotes from me&Allanah's conversation today] "well, I just glanced at my dp and noticed two fiiine hunnies jiving up the place." "I just don't like it and I've been yelling at grade 10s, throwing textbooks at them, it gets nasty in there let me tell you" Oh jesus, I am in love with 3 girls...Allanah, Gillian and Eveline ♥♥ They are quite wonderful :]] My hands are cold...

1 RAVES Do it again, she said to me. [Monday September 12th, 2005 4:33pm] [ mood | nauseated ] School today went by fast, which was sweet. Me&Jacki came home for lunch, ate some grilled cheese :] heh... Jordan had a headache all day today :[ I feel bad for him, it seemed like reallllly bad afterschool...♥ Hm, I'm hungry but I don't know what to eat. I have soo much cleaning to do, it's not even close to funny... Me and Allie were going to hangout today, but I guess she's going somewhere with Becki, so that's cool... Well I'm going to go rummage for some food. later.

3 RAVES So get the fuck out of my face, and dissapear without a trace. [Sunday September 11th, 2005 11:25pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Billy Talent. ] UGH! I have so much flem, that if I spit a loogue in your face, you would drowned...Damn cold, and Jordan sick too :[ Poor guy. He pees more then a pregnant woman, lmao. Ah jeeze... So, today was sweet for a Sunday... Met up with Jordan, then we went to Tecumseh Mall for a little while..Just to be sweet, we walked through almost every store, Jordan called it quits though *shakes fist* lol. Then, we went to his house, played some Mario Kart then went to *shudders* CHURCH I had to because him and his rents were going to 5:30 mass, and afterwards out to dinner but it was like downtown so I had to come with, lol..OH MAN, that was something to remember...Then we went to Jose's Noodle Factory for dinner, came back and watched Scooby Doo :] Goood times. I have so much laundry, I want to vomit. I'm out.. ps - My milkshake....oh it's better then yours.

2 RAVES [Sunday September 11th, 2005 10:36am] [ mood | blah ] Yesterday was sweeeet. My sister picked me up around 11, and then we went Yard Saling :] We went to this one that was for Katrina Releif and all donations were going to Red Cross, and I got this wooden chest that's green and black and it has a yellow moon and a star on the front and on the sides, I really like it. Then at another one, I got some door beads for my door, lolol. Then, we went to The Mongolian Grill. The food there is sweet. There's like a buffet line up, and there's one section with pasta, then the next has vegatables, then the next has meats&seafoods, then sauces&oils and then last one has spices. And you get a bowl and make you your own like pasta salad type thing, then you take it to the grilling guy and he grills it all up for you right in front of you. It was pretty good :]. Then we picked my bike up from Mike's on the way home. The tire was broken and Jordan's dad fixed it for me :] He knows so much about bikes, it's amazing, lol. Then, me and Char came back to my house and my mom was in the backyard, alone. So my sister comes out to the front and she's like "Your dad left mom all alone in the yard, he's so rude" So I come back there and sit with my mom and my sister and it ends up that my mom was working all day, and she had asked my dad to just do some stuff around the house like pay the bills, do some laundry, just stuff like that...Instead, he went out with his friend and did shots all day and was drunk by 4 pm. My mom wasn't impressed. He's such a jerk sometimes...Ugh. So my mom had decided she was going to go out and so me and my sister dropped her off where she was going and then my sister dropped me off at Jordans :] Then, we went in his basement and his dad fixed my tire for me, and then me and Jordan went and hungout with everyone... I have no idea what I'm doing today, I kind of want to see Jordan, but I'm not sure if he wants to see me or not...Okay, he does, lol. "Wanna do nothing together?" ♥ well I'm gonna go on Myspace. Later.

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